If I were to go back and brand the decades of my life, my thirties would appropriately be titled “Confused but seeking clarity.” Even after crossing the threshold of my mid-thirties, I’m no less adrift. But perhaps, as they say, not all who wander are lost. I recently noticed that Charlottean LeAnne “Little Big Thunder” Feliciano, owner of Sacred Wild Woman in Charlotte, offers virtual oracle card readings — a type of divination tool.
According to Astrology Answers, “Divination tools can help you to understand yourself and get a glimpse of what’s yet to come in your future. These tools can be used to find out information that isn’t readily obtainable by the five senses of sight, sound, touch, taste, and smell.”
LeAnne is a certified master hypnotherapist, a certified shamanic practitioner from Otter Dance School of Earth Medicine, an integrative healing arts practitioner from Southwest Institute of Healing Arts and has a degree in Occupational Psychology. She uses these skills, along with knowledge gained from her continued, relentless personal development work to help her clients regain their personal power and rekindle their inner light.
What I really want to ask her is: “Can you please just fix me?”
Often feeling misaligned and confused on “my path”, an oracle card reading will hopefully provide clarity around some existential question patterns: Do I want children? What do I want to be when I grow up?
Realizing my oracle card experience was more or less non-existent (yoga teachers sometimes reference them when “theming” a class) I booked a 30-minute weekend session with LeAnne.
The first card drawn during the reading is “Renewal of Peace”, which I view as a wake-up call. According to the card pulled from the Nature’s Whispers deck, “It is important to maintain peace with all aspects of your life, mental, emotional, physical and spiritual. Inner imbalances can often manifest in your daily life if you don’t make time to take care of yourself.”
Viewing quarantine as a time of self-reflection, I’m starting to understand why I always feel annoyed with work. In my tiny world, annoyance is the antithesis of peace. The thief of bliss. I used the “Renewal of Peace” card to dig a little deeper. Feelings associated with annoyance are worry, powerlessness, past trauma and grief. In other words, I’ve got some inner work to do!
When I first met my husband, I was brazenly upfront with not wanting children. However, as I get older I find myself revisiting this resolve often — a paradox I’m learning isn’t uncommon. Am I making the right choice to not have children? Will Future Me regret this decision? Am I destined to live a life of loneliness and destitution? Armed with so many dramatic questions no one can answer for me, a little metaphysical help along the journey inward is always a welcomed friend.
During my reading, LeAnne helps me uncover that I might just be bored. A new adventure sounds promising, but an 18-year minimum commitment to a human may not be the best choice at the moment. I can seek my “Renewal of Peace” elsewhere, like my upcoming vacation out west. Sounds much more affordable, too!
The next card I pulled was “Clear Out the Old.” This message resonates deeply from a work perspective. In my experience, personnel turnover at work leads to fear of the unknown: Will I like my new boss? Will departmental restructuring pile more tasks on my plate? As I contemplate these questions, I see these worries as completely rational.
I hereby resolve that my upcoming vacation is a reset. I intend to use my time away to “Clear Out the Old” worrisome thought patterns and return to the office anew. I vow to meet workspace turmoil with grit and grace — two characteristics that have carried me thus far.
The final card LeAnne pulls during our session is “Shift Your Energy.” I translate this message as “I’m a Negative Nancy and the creator of my own problems.” Remember those feelings of general annoyance I mentioned? A lot of it has to do with personal boundaries being crossed. But that’s the catch — these intangible boundaries have only been constructed by my ego. An institution of my own design.
As we conclude our oracle card reading session, I gather by my own note-taking that I’m somewhat of a shithead human with a lot of room for growth — like acreage of raw, untapped land. And upon reflection of my first official oracle card reading, I even view this modality as a type of therapy — an unbiased third party which prompts me to take a deeper look inward.
I’ll be the first one to admit the labyrinth of life is complicated, and honestly, it can be difficult to navigate alone. Embracing oracle cards can help us tap into our inner intuition, especially when we may just need a bit of divine guidance. After all, don’t the answers we seek already reside within us?
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